Clomid- Part 2....ACTION!!!

Ok...so last month was a dud. I can't believe it, I mean I had like every symptom that I could have except nausea and I thought I was not being obsessive watching every single feeling or discomfort.
I took clomid 100mg cd3-7. I took my last pill Saturday on 25th. This time though I don't feel any symptoms well side effects from the clomid like last month I had migraines. It kinda make me feel like I've been taking sugar pills..lol..the pills that don't do anything so I'm really hoping to ovulate this month.


I've been keeping myself busy to not dwell on this this month because I like went crazy last month...lol. My doctor do not have me monitored at all which I wish he at least did the mid check or whatever. But hopefully this month we get BFP and not have to worry about it. I also decided to take Fertile CM that I ordered from amazon (super excited..great reviews). My doctor told me that I have hostile mucus basically saying my area is attacking and killing the little sperms before they even have a chance.. :( He told me to drink a lot of water. Well when I looked it up I came across this Fertile CM. Fertile CM is suppose to help to make the area sperm friendly and less hostile. It's also suppose to help produce more fertile mucus for the sperm to get through.


So I'm taking Fertile CM, Double X, and baby aspirin. I also brought ovulation tests and ONLY 3 pregnancy tests..lol so whatever happens after the 3 I'm going to get a blood test.


I am going to start ovulation testing tomorrow and hopefully get a surge very soon. Then on to the two week wait... Yay!


The main thing I try to remember and have to remember is that God is always in charge regardless and when I remember this then it helps me to calm down even though me and my hubby are just soooo excited for when the time comes...


God Bless and lots of babydust....

Beautiful....

This is just beautiful...definitely adding to my dream board...I can see me now cruising down the highway...lol.. Love it!!!

Carrot Cake Sandwiches Handle the Heat

Carrot Cake Sandwiches Handle the Heat

This looks interesting to try. I'm going to try and see how it is. My only concern is whether it would be to sweet. So we'll see.

Infertility...Conception Problems...What???

We have been on a journey trying to conceive... but my husband is way more lax than I and ladies you know that time clock be ticking for us..lol. But we've been married for almost 3yrs and have known each other for 4yrs and ttc for 3yrs. I NEVER though that it would be a problem or it wouldn't just "happen" when the time came or accidentally or anything. I have never taken birth controls because I didn't need to. I heard about people ttc for yrs and couldn't imagine, you know I just felt bad for them and prayed for them but when it becomes you, its amazing how it can have so much affect on you. It makes me feel so bad because my husband is such a family oriented guy and he loves family, so looking forward to us having a family is something I cant wait for.

 In the beginning, I thought it was just going to happen you know and it did then I had a miscarriage. Then it happened again and another miscarriage. I couldn't believe it, I never even thought of that being a problem, I mean my sister popped out her three with no problems. So then after a year with nothing happening (the miscarriages was over a period of 2 yrs). I started looking more into it and researching myself because I was telling my ob but he wasn't moving fast enough and it is like so difficult getting an appointment with him and he told me he wanted us to just have fun with it and try not to think about it, which of course is not that easy but I managed to put it on the back burner with everything else that was going on but that did not work so we're back at square one. Everything seems so far and in between with my doctor I figured I'll see what I can do to help the process. Finding out that my weight plays a big factor on fertility, it made me want to step up my fitness habits. I already had made the decision to live a healthier lifestyle but now I have more motivation.

Also my doctor finally gave me clomid 100mg...I'm soooo excited to see how it goes. I'm praying that we get it on the first round (currently on first round). So we'll see how it goes...

God Bless...

Digging a Little Deeper...

I find that I am a very personal individual for whatever reason I just know I've been like this for years since I can remember and I'm 26 right now. Well it didn't use to be a problem until recently since I've gotten married. My husband has a big problem with me being soooo private so we clash just about every time about it but I try to get him to understand where I come from and I understand where he's coming from and we meet half way...but that's easier said than done. Which I don't get because it just sounds so simple to me..lol but of course he has to be difficult..lol..joking. Really we do see totally different points when it comes to this, he is totally a "my business is your business type of guy and I have nothing to hide". Me on the other hand is like "my business is my business and when/if I know you well enough I MIGHT tell you". So you see how it could cause a problem. The only simple reason I have is that I always felt you cant control what WAS said or who you told something, once its out its out and if you didn't tell the right person or say the right thing than it can cause a mess. Another one of my reasons is because a lot of times when you tell people something they can be so negative or opinionated and is totally not helpful even if they mean well. A lot of times I like to work on things than once its where I want it or I make a decision about it than I let people in but my husband acts like he don't understand that at all. He'll tell somebody something like his mother then she'll be asking us about it til the end and it is soooo annoying to me. So I'm going to open up on here a little more to ease in to the process..lol..for my husband. I told him we're opposites which is a good thing he helps me look at things from another perspective and vice versa cause I do know I can be uptight about some things..so I have decided to work on it. But really do anyone see where I'm coming from???? :)

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Staying Motivated...

Today I did not meet the goals I had in place. I had other distractions that came about and was focused on helping others which could be good or bad but in this case it was bad. You never allow other people to take you off your tasks. Of course sometimes it is really necessary but other times your just helping them complete their list and neglecting your own.

Anyhow... I am resetting the goal and starting again.

Short term goal is to jog the next 5 days in a row for ATLEAST 30 minutes. I'll do that for the next couple of weeks until it becomes habit. Also no fried foods.

Fun fact...It takes 21days in a row to commit something to habit.. :)

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Weight-loss Challenge....

I have been so much more into my weight and healthIER habits thats its just getting crazy...lol! I have always tried to maintain a passive healthy lifestyle. The reason I say passive is because I never really made a huge attempt to choose healthier options when given the chance like if my husband goes to the store and buy groceries with a bunch of junk. Ill eat it with him but maybe not as much.

Well my weight has been really bothering me because me and my husband are TTC and nothings happened and we been trying for about 2 1/2 yrs. So of course I'm going to look up every factor that could be causing it because now its just getting really long and I know I want to have children very soon. So weight was a big factor when it came to some causes. I was already fed up with my weight anyway and my motto is "If you don't like it..fix it and if you can't fix it..learn to like it." So I had to stop being depressed and insecure about my body and do something about it. Even little things, it's better to start with small goals so when you accomplish them it encourages you to move to larger goals and i learned if you miss the goal or is not as disciplined as you wanted or think you should be again its ok... just reset the goal and go at it again. The key is to NEVER quit. So not only will this help me conceive but I want to bounce back quickly afterwards and don't want to be sloppy looking while I'm pregnant. I weighed myself recently and I weighed 160lbs which is totally not good at all but the high I weighed was 165 which is when i decided to make things happen and be able to wear what I want again. Before this I was NEVER this heavy, I was 125 for the longest since high school and while I was in the military in 2006 so I don't even know when this happened. Its like you go to sleep one day and wake up the next and can't fit into the jeans you had on the day before.. WTH???

So now I feel like I'm racing against the clock because I feel I'm going to get pregnant any month soon now (which I would be soooo happy regardless my babies would be definitely be worth the extra hard after birth workouts...lol). So I have been working out and watching my eating habits for a while ok about 3 weeks strong but this last week I have just had the munchies like no other and have not been working out as much which is definitely not good. So I am recommitting tonight about starting my workout in the am but I thought "maybe I'll be more accountable if I be more involved with others with like minds. So I'm going to be posting my weight-loss journey on my blog and I would like to hear from others on their journey. Also I did start earlier this year and I was using weight-loss supplements but I decided to not take any weight-loss while I'm TTC. Not that it would harm anything but it just didn't sound right. Even though I was LOVING those supplements..its all good. I did lose weight to 150 the beginning of this month but i just feel this week totally messed me up and I don't even want to get on the scale. I will though because I want to post my current weight and goal weight and time frame.

Oh and I am only 5'1
So my check-in weight is: 160LBS!!! Exactly (had to take a deep breath and get on..lol)
My pre-pregnancy goal is : (at least) 145lbs but more is always better
First goal date: 30 June 2011
My Ultimate Goal Weight is: 125lbs

So I will report my activities and healthy choices tomorrow.

Also I have come across some articles and such about US and obesity that i want to inform you all about that I totally didn't know. So I probably post that tomorrow night or sometime this weekend.

God Bless... :)

Total Focus

I have been on a fitness high lately. I'm like so motivated to lose weight its ridiculous. I think whats really pushing me is the fact that whenever I check that scale it has been wavering between like 150 and 165. Thank God I have not seen 160 for about 2 weeks now but its been standing between 145 and 155 for about a week which is totally driving me up a wall. But I'm going to keep moving forward because I know ill conquer the wavering. Goal weight 124 lbs!!!!

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Total Makeover...

So I have decided to be more active and step up my healthy habits. I have been going to the gym for the past 2 weeks everyday and the 2 days I wasnt able to attend this weekend I made up for by going up and down the 6 flight of steps at the hotel we were at this weekend (all weekend). Seeing how many people are out of shape and just dont practice a healthy lifestyle. I figured since I have my own business and Im promoting Optimal Health what better way to get involved than to get involved.... :) So in order for me to help other people switch bad habits into good I have to have done it myself. So I am going to learn healthier simple ways to convert into a healthier lifestyle .

Are U Ready for Spiritual Battle?

This is a great article, one that I need to review often. Its very important to be prepared for spiritual warfare because if not than you will get torn down...(believe me I know from experience). You don't realize how unarmored you are until the battle actually comes. As I start to prepare for battle I start to feel the peace that God gives me through it and its an amazing feeling...

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Hot Topic: Spiritual Warfare

What is a spiritual war? Is there one going on right now?

Yes, there is a real spiritual war going on right now. And if we are going to fight in this war, we need to recognize the enemy—Satan, the Devil. He is attacking the lives and causes of Christians. Satan is not targeting those who already belong to him; he is after those who want to defeat him. And we don’t want to be ignorant of his devices “lest Satan should take advantage” of the brethren (2 Corinthians 1:8, 11).

Can God protect me, and my loved ones, in the midst of spiritual warfare?

Remember that “the Spirit in you is far stronger than anything in the world” when you belong to God (1 John 4:4). But you and your loved ones must arm yourselves with the whole armor of God: the girdle of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the shoes of the Gospel of peace, the shield of faith, the helmet of salvation, the sword of the Spirit—and pray! Paul said to “put on the whole armor or God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil” (Ephesians 6:11). “So let God work His will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper” (James 4:6 The Message).

What is the armor of the believer, and how do I use it?

Constant communication with the Commander—God—through prayer is vital. Our offensive weapon is the sword of the Spirit, the Word of God. When Satan tried to tempt Jesus, God’s Word is what Jesus used as a weapon, saying, “It is written.” Use God’s Word as your sword to defeat the enemy. The knowledge of God which resides in His Word is the girdle of truth—so study His Word. Satan attacks the sin in your life. But, you become protected and powerful when you put on the breastplate of righteousness by setting your heart on God and living out His righteousness. Walking in the shoes of peace is trusting God to give you courage to witness to those around you. Your faith—your confidence in God’s promises—becomes your shield of faith in spiritual battle. Your salvation relationship with Christ is your helmet of salvation, and it protects your mind from Satan’s evil influences.

Is it possible to be at peace while at war?

Peace of mind is possible when you know who will win. Christ defeated the enemy on the cross. Trust Jesus and “you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart!” Jesus said, “I’ve conquered the world” (John 16:33 The Message).

Peter tells us to “Be sober, be vigilant because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour” (1 Peter 5:8). But be encouraged because the resurrection of Jesus has taken the pain out of the Devil’s sting (1 Corinthians 15:55). Don’t live a defeatist life because evil exists. Be at peace with the confidence that Jesus has overcome the world! Read more at www.davidjeremiah.org

 

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Self Examination....

So much has been going on in my life right now and I was sitting here trying to decide if I wanted to write or should I say "what to write". I've been wanting to write but often once I get to the page I dont even know where to begin. I have been on an emotional roller coaster in my marriage lately, I mean DEFINITELY going through the storm. I wasnt going to write this because I feel like its personal (which of course it is) but I also want to be transparent, that we all go through something because thats life but HOW we go through it is what makes the difference.

I've only been married for 2 and a half years but if feels like an eternity..lol (I dont know how they make it 10-20-30+yrs).  Through this storm that I have been going thru I have been getting deeper in my spiritual studies and I remember that God didnt say He would remove the burdens but that He will make them lighter. He gives us burdens to remind us that we need Him and we cant live this life without Him. I have to say that I can verify that when times were good (embarrassed to say) I did not spend as much time as I should have with Him and I didnt realize it until things werent as "good" or easy as before. Thank you Lord for your gentle reminder...

Battling in Prayer

I am fan of In Touch Ministries with Dr. Charles Stanley and I was looking at his website and reading some of his articles and I came across his article about Battling in Prayer. Basically it’s about how we deal with conflict, worry, stress, etc and for me this is right up my alley with what I’m dealing with in my life right now. Not necessarily that I have a lot problems but just decisions that have to be made. I know sometimes people tend to think they need to pray more when there having problems but forget that you dont have to have problems to pray. We should be in prayer with every decision that has to be made so that is where I am going to God for everyday decisions and not stressing out trying to get the right answer. I think this is a great article to read. It’s short but covers a lot. So check it out and learn how to go to God in everything. He wants us to. God Bless!!! The link is below...

Battling in Prayer

India... :)

NO POSTS!!!

Ok...so I look at my blog and no posts except for the first one!!! Whats going on??? Wheres all my posts??? I have been posting from my new htc evo trying to be more productive with it but apparently I'm doing something wrong. So hopefully its on my phone and I can just upload or something. But anywho.. I'm still trying to get use to blogger because I still dont quiet get it. Is there no way to browse others blogs??? I see no browse section.

I hope everyone is having a great day today so far. My day is going fine. My husband went to see his doctor today and that is an ALL day event so this time I decided to stay home and tighty up. The house is a mess I'm sad to say so this is organization day.

As stated in my other posts (that didnt upload) I am on my weight loss journey (of 34lbs) and so I'm about to go do my workout for today. I will post my routine later maybe tonight and weightloss supplements I'm currently taking to support my journey. I will also post my starting pic.

So have a blessed day today and be encouraged and motivated to go after your goals inch by inch...

God Bless... India :)

No Excuses!!!

My last posting (or first...lol) stated that I'm going to be writing every week this year and as of now I say I missed about 3 which is not good. A lot has been going on and I have been writing but privately. So I could say why I haven't written but my philosophy is no excuses.

One of the reasons I decided to start a blog is to also rid myself of all of these fears of what others think. I never used to be this way and I used to hate myself for getting to this point but God has bought me a long way. It started from my last relationship before my husband. And it definitely wasnt the ideal relationship by no means(another blog post) but it took so much away from who I was. I'm amazed how things can affect u for so long if u allow it. So now I'm praying to God to relieve me from that person and bring back my fearlessness. So I could make up excuses why I haven't written but quite frankly there are none. We all do what we want to do we all make choices whether we say it or not. So just reset the goal and make different better choices to achieve the new goals u set.

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I'm Posting Every Week In 2011!!!

Happy 2011, All!!!
I’ve decided I want to blog more in 2011. Rather than just thinking about doing it, I’m starting right now. I created this blog beginning of 2010 and did nothing with it. But this year is the year for NOW, no procrastinating but getting things done. I will be posting on this blog AT LEAST once a week for all of 2011. This is not to say I wont have more postings throughout the week but I'm starting with AT LEAST once a wk. Which is my first message for this year... forget about what you have or have NOT done but rather what you will and want to do. The important things is to start off small to not overwhelm yourself and create a habit, once the habit is created than you can increase it.
I know it won’t be easy, but I'm sure it will be fun, inspiring, awesome and wonderful for me and prayerfully for you. I also have a blog over at the wordpress and therefore I'm making use of The DailyPost, and the community of other bloggers with similiar goals, to help me along the way, including asking for help when I need it and encouraging others when I can.
When I first created this account my vision was/is for this to be something fun and cool, and to be able to inspire and help others so that maybe through my experiences I can somehow be a blessing to you. I also wanted to be able to grow from networking with others as well.
Please subscribe to blog and I hope you’ll encourage me with comments and likes, and good will along the way.

God Bless,

India

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